Solitude

I am about 39 weeks pregnant and I'm having a very intensive need/wish for some alone time. I feel I am never alone, even at night, when I go to pee, Charlie's almost always there lying on my feet. This night, at 4am, Teodor managed to be behind the door even before I managed to finish my business there. It meant making him sleep. I sometimes get so irritated by hearing those four paws doing top top top top or hearing va-va-va or brm-brm-brm going in my direction.

I started taking naps with Teodor in the daytime (because if I wake up at night, I can't fall asleep immediately :() meaning I don't get my toddler-free hour during the day and in the evening, well, Charlie's always close...and also the dad is at home...so no alone time either. 

Always surrounded by the toddler and the dog..

Anyway, I feel like it is something natural before giving birth, to connect somehow with the baby and get ready for the labour. This pregnancy went totally by me. But now, as I am very close to meet our daughter, I feel like I should connect, meditate, look forward to meeting her.. But having only a nuclear family doesn't really make it happen. 

This weekend we're planning to do some nesting, meaning there won't be any alone time either...well, maybe then the next weekend...I am not one of those pregnant people who want to give birth asap. I will be fine to give birth around the due date because otherwise I/we will not be prepared for her...

I really wish I could disappear into a cottage somewhere in the woods and wait for the birth and not to be always on hand to Charlie or Teodor.